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Maybe I'm Normal? - 04/01/2013
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I am trapped inside a blue, hard plastic belt of immobility. OK, maybe that's a bit of an exaggeration, I can walk around the house. And that's what I do, I actually walk in circles in the house several times a day. I sit for no more than 45 minutes, I walk for 10-15 minutes, then I sit, then I walk. I don't bake bread, I don't knead bread, I don't create crusty masterpieces. Not much cooking of any kind going on, can't get anything into or out of the oven. Look at this odd picture of me. I originally took it to show how happy I was to be able to get out of the house, but now I see such a strange...um...smile (?). What the hell is that, a smirk or perhaps a grimace? This little pity party I've been having about not being able to do anything I normally do is starting to turn into depression. I realized I am still defined by my abilities. I thought I'd gotten past all that when I tried to get away from being defined by my dis ability (mental illness). But I'm finding that without being able to bake, or clean, or simply be a fun companion (couldn't go out last night to watch a college basketball game, and "intimacy" scares the hell out of me) I feel useless, worthless, unloveable. I'm guessing that if my older daughter is reading this, which it seems she has been reading my blog (thank you Sarah), she'd be thinking "Oh mom, it's normal to feel that way." Lately she's been reminding me that some feelings I've been having are actually quite universal, not limited to a person with...

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